Awkward

I recently suffered a very awkward conversation sitting in a car driving home at 11pm, on a scale of one to ten it would probably qualify as a 8.46, definately in the red the I would like to erase that memory forever degree of awkwardness. It was perhaps the topic, it was perhaps the occassion. Without being overly dramatic, at the best of times I fear I am a rather awkward conversationalist, lacking the naturalness and warmth that my other friends just seem to exude in grand abundance. Rather like Paul Rudd's character in " I love you man" I say random things, prolong uncomfortable silences, seem to have a different rather different conversation tempo and I really have to try to be engaging. Without delving into the literature on EQ, and all the psychology of being an only Asian child. Musing about it, I really think it comes down to an eagerness to being agreeable, which I often lack, add to that the fact that I tend to be rather reserved in my social interactions and combined you have disaster... sigh..